My rabid phone envy and consumerist drive have gotten the best of me...I can't get a new phone until June, which really sucks, unless I want to pay MSRP which is like, hundreds more than what I should be paying, so that's kind of out. I guess Verizon decided to act like jerks and decree that you can't start a new contract unless you get a new #, which I don't want to do, nor do I need to. My mother would say, "That's God's way of telling you that you don't need a new phone."

What I should have asked for for Christmas:

- a desk chair (I've been rocking a folding chair for almost a year)
-lamps

What I really asked for:

-a printer/scanner (which I actually do need)
-sharp knives
-a couple of books

Maybe I can still finagle a desk chair out of them, I dunno. The problem is that so few are actually on display, and I'd need to sit in one to actually see how it feels. Maybe I should just order one from Target or something instead of relying on Staples. All I want is good lumbar support and a wide seat, which isn't too hard to find, seeing as how I'm small.

It's so weird not to really want anything for the holidays, a true sign that I'm finally grown up. I DID want a watch but all the pretty ones are way too expensive and the cheaper ones are items that I can buy myself, so what's the point really. I'll wind up getting a Nixon or something. Or a fake Rolex.

Marry me, Spencer Smith.

I've never seen "Back to the Future" (s) or any of the Indian Jones movies. It's funny to tell people that and watch their reactions. Even my mom was shocked. But it's not like she ever sat me down and said, "You have to see these movies." The only movies I ever remember her recommending to me are "Georgie Girl" and "16 Candles."

The "fuck you" for the day goes to The Gap, once again, for discontinuing my bra and not replacing it. So now they have either really old-lady looking basic garments or the kind with the kind of padded cups that don't fit me. I went to Lord and Taylor 2 weeks ago thinking I could get something decent but anything that's pretty or interesting is waaaay padded or lacking underwire and anything that's the alternative looks really utilitarian. So, in sum: fuck you, Gap. I can't be the only person in the country who wants a normal bra with thin straps, right?

Some days, I think the subway stations are like supernatural vortexes that magically slow everyone down. I swear, people are so f-ing slow up in there some days! I've never seen people take so long to go down some stairs. I think my new subway station will be less crowded in the morning. It's not midtown, at least.

David Cook is in my city--woo!

MTV2 is having a "Beavis and Butthead" marathon, which I always enjoy. I love proto-Daria and proto-Hank Hill. I want to know how Mike Judge came up with these crazy voices.

Lord & Taylor was v, v disappointing. Not even a cute pair of shoes. Like, not even anything that I was remotely interesting. And what the fuck are the people at UGG doing, trying to foist summer shoes upon us? No one wants sheepskin near their feet in the middle of summer. It's bad enough in winter but you tolerate it because the damn shoes are so warm and comfy. But then I wandered around Sephora and got happy and finally bought a decent eyeshadow brush.

And also listened to Patrick Stump singing Tom Waits's "Tom Traubert's Blues" like 6 times in a row because it kind of slays me and I love it. I actually like him singing it better than Waits. Simple, beautiful song. Must listen to more Tom Waits but there's so much of it! I'm busying trying to see if I like Prince, at the moment. So far, to quote Danny Noriega: "Some people weren't likin' it!"

I am exhausted, per usual. DK came for a visit which was nice except for my anxiety attacks and being freaked out about who knows what. Sometimes I just want to go home and crawl into my parents' bed like a moron. But yeah, now I'm exhausted (2 weeks in a row of company- I'm getting so old!) and I had a nap at 6pm and ate too much and spent too much at the supermarche and uh, blerg. Yeah, that's about right.

I want a stupid smart phone so badly. Like, a Blackberry Pearl or one of the Verizon branded models. I'm like a kid in a candy store when I go to the Verizon store. I love the iPhone but I do wish it had a keyboard on it because I like tangible things. It's why I never dug the Razr when it first came out. I could appreciate the slimness of it but I didn't like how the keys felt. But the thing with the iPhone is that it has the web browsing that actually looks like the internet. I don't know why everyone else hasn't figured out that shit yet.

And also, I kinda can't type on the Pearl. I've heard that you get used to it once you actually own one but the inability to get out a coherent message when I'm just playing with it is kind of a downer. But it's so cute! But I really don't need one! Always a consumer.