I weighed myself this morning, and I thought that I'd topped off at 145, but no. I'm firmly in my usual fat weight, which is a comfort, of sorts. I'd rather start from 140 than 145. Normally, I see the weight gain in my face, but this time it appears to all have gone to my thighs and stomach. I have my work cut out for me! Walked a little over 1.5 miles, and will probably do the same tomorrow. I'll have to watch myself on Wednesday, as we're going out of town, but I think I'm finally back on the right track. The chicken and couscous that I made for dinner wasn't very good, but I tried. I cannot survive only on Lean Cuisine and popcorn.

(again, I know 140 doesn't seem like a lot, but it's not a flattering number on my frame)

I had this beer over the weekend, and granted it was at a place with fancy beers, but the damn thing really knocked me out. I guess maybe beer isn't my friend right now? I have to watch it... it wasn't the heaviest choice on the menu, and maybe I was tired to begin with, but it was annoying. And wine is never my friend because it goes down so easily. I guess my best choice for social drinking would be mixed things, the old standby, the vodka/tonic, or White Russians or screwdrivers or something. Takes a while for those to kick in, unless I'm making them myself. I wish I knew my alcohol limitations by now, but they're so schizophrenic. It would be nice to go out and KNOW how much I could/could not drink, instead of it always being a crap shoot. Of course, drinking is not the most important part of a night out for me, but it would be great to not get sick from having 2 vodka/tonics one night and then have 4 different things the next night and be totally fine. I don't think I'm ever going to figure it out...

I've also noticed that I swear more than anyone I know; I don't know why. I don't think it makes me cool or anything, nor do I listen to especially swear-y music. At this point, it appears to be a reflex. None of my friends curse all that much, except maybe BN, and he's sequestered thousands of miles away. Gotta watch that mouth.

I'm 25 in 6 months- eep!

Also, can "True Blood" please be back on, like, NOW? I have plenty of other shows stored on the DVR, but I think I'm going to have to go and re-watch S1 again, along with "Darjeeling." Stupid, cheesy, vampires!